various things

To be a pleaser
Over the past two days I have come face to face once again with my own wickedness manifested in the lust to please people. Not for the sake of pleasing God. The people pleaser seeks to please in order to receive love. It is a terminal carnality that eats away the divine call to Christlikeness.
Lord, I confess this nature which is indeed a self-inflicted thorn. Trying to build up my own personal kingdom of love through the system of IOU.
mtullos@lifeway.com
- posted by Matt @ 11/4/2003 10:09:33 AM
Monday, November 03, 2003

comings and goings....
Today was a slow day of work. I'm still here. Planning to work on the Animation project for TM412 tonight. Clint McElroy is in town. Sounded like he was in the middle of a remote when I called. We're hoping to get together sometime this week to visit.
I'm also trying to prepare for my trip to NC this weekend. I'm really not looking forward to it like I usually would, perhaps because of all that is happening in my life here in Nashville.
As crazy as this sounds to me, I'm considering finding an interim pastorate. Darlene called and said she's really struggling today with Isaac's attitude toward her. We just have to remind ourselves that sometimes being the enemy of our kids desires is not a bad thing to be.
Jacob is having some grade woes. It's true what they say about where apples fall.
The highlight of the day was eating at the calypso cafe and buying a book "Contemplative Prayer" by Thomas Merton. Yes, flew under the baptist radar and smuggled it into Lifeway!
Feeling a bit like the egg man.
That's all for now... coo-coo ka- ju
- posted by Matt @ 11/3/2003 03:59:59 PM

Isaiah 45: 11 a unique word from God
"Thus says the Lord, the Holy One of Isreal "Ask me of the things to come concerning my sons."
- posted by Matt @ 11/3/2003 03:02:24 PM

Isaiah 50:10
"Who is among you who reverently fears the Lord, who obeys the voice of His Servant, yet who walks in darkness and deep trouble and has no shining splendor in his heart? Let him rely on, trust in, and be confident in the name of the Lord, and let him lean upon and be supported by his God."
Matt,
There are going to be days that are actually nights. There will times when you can't see your hand in front of your face, much less, Mine. There will be times when the galant spendor of the Kingdon seems half a galaxy away. It is at that particular time that you must trust that I'm there even in the dark. You can't see me but know this- I see you."
- posted by Matt @ 11/3/2003 02:17:57 PM

Blake
"We are put on earth for a little space to bear the beams of love."
William Blake
- posted by Matt @ 11/3/2003 02:03:13 PM

Tough prayer to pray:
"Lord, if this thorn will bring me closer to you, please do NOT remove it."
- posted by Matt @ 11/3/2003 01:10:15 PM